Wednesday, May 30, 2007

i've been losing sleep, just can't seem to sleep properly at night. losing my appetite. losing my concentration in class. i wonder what is wrong. wondering if school is too stessful or sumthing.
i feel sick. but there are no coughing no high temperature.
i hope i am able to withstand this period of time.








if you knew
how much she means to me
if you knew
how this women makes me happy
this is home

Posted by jianwei at 8:48 AM

even if it yields no results. i'm just glad to be around...

Posted by jianwei at 6:48 AM

Monday, May 28, 2007

i'll be patient. i really really.......... :)

Posted by jianwei at 8:55 AM

Saturday, May 26, 2007

say goodbye.
to hell with everything.

Posted by jianwei at 4:36 AM

Sunday, May 20, 2007

i wonder. i really wonder.
if only you know how i still feel. haha am i naive or what?




I'm staring out into the night,
Trying to hide the pain.
I'm going to the place where love
And feeling good don't ever cost a thing.
And the pain you feel's a different kind of pain.

Posted by jianwei at 9:16 AM

Friday, May 18, 2007

Would you dance
if I asked you to dance?
Would you run
and never look back?
Would you cry
if you saw me cry?
And would you save my soul, tonight?

Posted by jianwei at 7:24 PM

Wednesday, May 16, 2007

Shadows fill an empty heart
As love is fading,
From all the things that we are
But are not saying.
Can we see beyond the scars
And make it to the dawn?
What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
Baby, before it's too late,
What about now?

Posted by jianwei at 8:04 AM

Tuesday, May 15, 2007

it's been almost a week now. and it's tough man.

Posted by jianwei at 7:49 AM

Friday, May 11, 2007

And that's about the time that she walked away from me
Nobody likes you when you're less than 5'3"
And are still more amused by crappy shows
What the hell is SAD?
My friends say I should be myself
What's my name again?
What's my name again?



my version of what's my age again by Blink 182.










you gotta keep it strong.

Posted by jianwei at 9:15 AM

Wednesday, May 9, 2007

went to gym today. saddness fueled my workout. the more i thought about it, the more i pushed myself.
i hate myself.
i just can't walk away.

Posted by jianwei at 6:00 AM

Tuesday, May 8, 2007

if i told you i wasn't sad. i'll be lying. to be honest i felt totally devastated.
the saddness over powered me. i never ever felt this sad before.
if only you knew.
everything seems to revovle around you.
morning my dad flips to the papers and i see mr ronaldo and i thought of you.
even if i grow up one day, you'll be like a scar in my heart. but right now it's still bleeding.








grant my last request.
take good care of yourself
ur lameness
ur smile
my sweet memories.

Posted by jianwei at 2:31 AM

Monday, May 7, 2007

what else do i have to do? can you just tell me. tell me the truth even if it hurts. i can fucking take it man.
i'm really really miserable. I'm not trying to force you to make a decision. i just need you to tell me how you feel.
it is really mentally torturous. i hope you understand.
feel for me.

Posted by jianwei at 8:32 AM

Sunday, May 6, 2007

it's starting to get interesting..
haha. we'll see how it goes.
jian wei time for you to wake up.
you've been sleeping too long.

Posted by jianwei at 3:23 AM

Wednesday, May 2, 2007

headed to gym in the afternoon. then it was Spidey 3 in the evening.
it's a pretty good show. it's definitely worth it.
how can anyone not want to watch this show.
if a cry baby watches this shwo with you,
she'll probably cry until ur shirt is wet.
and that's what happen to one guy in the cinema.
HAHAHA!





Posted by jianwei at 7:19 AM